Oh how silly it is to tell me to keep quiet and not draw attention! That's like begging for the opposite. Of course I can be a total grown-up in the appropriate situation but when it's not required what's the point? Anyway the person that said that today as we were leaving work got a performance. I sang and and did a dorky dance before we got to the parking lot.

It's just when you can be silly...why not? I like being a spaz and having fun. I know sometimes I push the limits but I spent so much of my life being MISERABLE it just seems I have a lot to catch up on.

Speaking of catching, I'm lucky I caught myself last night. In a state of extreme bizarre doped upness I just caught myself from spilling a glass of tea as I tumbled to the ground. I scrapped my knee on my carpet and it hurt something awful. I have no idea what happened. I felt really dizzy, unco-ordinated and quite frankly high as a kite. The feeling passred and I felt night time med normal rather quickly.

I didn't mention I went out the last couple of weeks to the extremely lame PI. Actually the second night left me alone because I couldn't find the group I was looking for. The music is so bad out there but it's free so whatever.

You know what's weird? I had a crush on this guy for about two seconds and I like him and think he's a cool person but damn, I could seriously never crush on him now that I know him (and no it's not the old crush. that guy disappeared. oh where did he go?). Strange huh? I think he's hilarious and a lot of fun but that's it.

I need a crush, or a fling or better yet a boyfriend I'll fall madly and happily and forever in love with.

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