Well I haven't written in here in ages! Things have been super busy, mostly my working far too much. But I've been kinda' under the weather for the last couple of days and at least that's given me a chance to rest. Rest is what I needed, especially as I felt a bit of a funk coming on.

Oh diary, sometimes me and my issues drive me batty. I don't know what it is but for the last year or so I just want acceptance. I can't handle the thought of anyone being mad at me or disappointed in me. As a matter of fact it completely tears me down when either of the above happen. I don't know what to do about it. It's really hard to live that way because it's impossible to please everyone all the time but I want to. I want to have everyone be okay and to be happy and shamefully to like me.

How I've turned from wanting the world to think the worst of me so it couldn't hurt me into what I am now, a creature who strives to be accepted, to be adored. It's all quite pathetic really.

Issues.

Clears throat and moves on...

There are so many new people at work that's it's plain invigorating. I have a couple of favorites already. Meeting new people is always so great. I love it. I love it more when they're funny! People who make me laugh are tops.

Oh and a storm is brewing off the coast. So far it's just a tropical storm with hurricane potential but it looks like it's going to be another long rainy and stormy summer.

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