There are some things you can't talk about because they are the things you don't want people to know about. Because these are the things you should be stronger than, the things you should be over in leaps and bounds. But I'm not that strong. And sometimes I have a hard time leaping and bounding.

Really how is it that I can feel so okay with the world and myself and still have this spot inide of me that is reserved for those that are lost? I'd simply like to bleach it out. Almost. Almost because I also don't want to. What a conflict.

There are so many people that I miss. I wish I'd done better, I wish I'd done right by them. I wish I'd been okay. But you cannot go back and change what is done. You just have to move on. Rememeber a past smile or a laugh or a touch as what it was...an amazing moment that is perhaps appropriately lost.

Meh. I don't know.

Yesterday was sadly uneventful.

PS: I found my polka dotted headband.
I still look awful.
Woo-hoo!

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