Today I was crabby and just overall cranky! I don't know why, I think it's because I was really tired. Scratch that, I'm still really tired. I'm really looking forward to going to sleep. How sad is that?

I don't know. I'm also actively trying to keep myself out of a little funk I feel coming on. I feel just a twinge of self-pity making it's way towards me and that never leads to a road of good. So self? Stop it before it gets out of hand. I hate when I get moody and self-moaning. It drives me completely crazy. I suppose sometimes it's just a little bit inevitable. I mean gee...about ninety five perecent of the time I'm all gung ho and zest for living girl so I guess it's not too bad. Five percent in a funk isn't all that bad. Still it's five percent I'd rather not waste on feeling sorry for myself.

I mean really, I have it good. There are things I wish I had in life that I don't but everything else is so bountiful. I have the best family in the world. I have a lot of comfort in my life. Still I can't help but think how much I miss the things I don't have.
"What I want is what I've not got, and what I need is all around me."
Anyway, sometimes I feel selfish for wanting more. But at the same time is it selfish to want more love? It's not as if I don't appreciate what I have, I do and so very much, it's just that I want a different kind of love in addition.

Whine and moan.

Besides...what I need is all around me I just have to look in the right places, huh?

And *sigh*, Matt wasn't at work today. I use his name like I know him.

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