I had the worst dream last night! I didn't remember it until this afternoon after I'd been at work a few hours, I guess the stockroom scenery made me remember. Anyways in my dream I'm in the stockroom talking to my co-worker and she tells me my ex has AIDS. That he's slept around with lots of people before me and everyone knew it, except me. Everyone also knew he had this disease and didn't they tell me? Oopsie, it must have slipped their minds. What a fucking horrible dream. An absolutely horrible, please don't ever let me have another like this, dream.

See? I thought I'd forgotten about this nagging worry, but I obviously haven't. I don't know how safe he was in the past. Actually I'm fairly certain he wasn't on one occasion before we together and who knows who he was with between the tme we broke up and my disasterous trip to Michigan. And he lived in fucking Russia which has this astronomically large growing increase in AIDS reported cases every fucking day (yeah...I read some article in Marie Claire that mentioned this, another subconcious thing that contributed to my dream obviously). So I'm scared okay? I made a mistake. We didn't use protection and what if it ends up killing me or something?

I should think about something else. It's not like I can do anything about it right this moment anyhow. I should just chill, hope I don't have another dream where I may have been infected with a truly awful disease, and watch Charmed. Maybe I'll dream about being a good witch who erradicates HIV/AIDS from the planet. Or make people wear pink tu-tu's instead.

Pink tu-tu's? Yes I had a dream where I was a good witch who accidentally made a guy into a ballerina, tu-tu and all...except he couldn't take the tu-tu off, try as he might. I forgot the reversal spell until I remembered something I'd seen on Charmed and whamm-o bammo-o I remembered the spell. That's what happens when you're mean to me, a pink tu-tu for you buddy. Enemies beware!

Vague-y spoilers for The Garden State to follow...

Yeah...I also accidentally deleted some entries...let's cover that quickly. I saw The Garden State. It was good. Recommended. I wasn't jiving with the whole anti-meds vibe because meds are really good for some of us. Wasn't too sure about the ending. I'm glad Sam didn't get that double whammy but...I didn't think it was realistic. What guy would stick around after four days? Love, real or not? I could really relate to her crying in the airport though, before Andrew came back anyway. The drug use kinda' shocked me. The abundance of coke at any rate. Maybe I do live in a different world?

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